My Return of Saturn

In the fall of 2005 I packed up my old, candy apple red 97’ Dodge Stratus with all my belongings and began the 3,000 mile trek from Pennsylvania to California. I was moving across country to start a new life, living with my girlfriend at the time in her college dorm room. I had spent all winter and spring touring the country with my band, The Valentine. Looking back, those months I spent packed in a van with 5 guys traveling all over this land were some of the best times of my life. The only care we had was somehow finding enough money to get to the next show and where we were going to party that night. Still to this day, some of the best memories I have. But like anything else in life, there came a time to move on. I wanted to try something new, and California was the place to do it.

Today, almost 10 years later, I packed up my car and am leaving for another adventure. This time it’s not music related, but trying some new things as a model. The industry is still a bit new for me and it’s different in every market you go to. I’ve given Los Angeles a shot, it’s been good to me, but I want to try some new markets as well. So first I’m off to Chicago. From there I’ll be making stops in Toronto, New York City, and hopefully Miami.

I’m not a person that pays attention to horoscopes and things of that nature, but in horoscopic astrology there’s an event known as the Saturn return. It’s an astrological transit that occurs when the planet Saturn returns to the same place in the sky that it occupied at the moment of a person’s birth. This tends to take about 29 to 30 years and psychologically, the first Saturn return is seen as the time of reaching full adulthood. Now someone explained this to me recently and I seemed to make a lot of sense for where my life is. I’m 29 years old, and in many ways I feel like a kid. I’m sure there’s a part of everyone that will always feel like that. But the more time I spend with people who are in their early 20s, the more I realized that I’m not a kid. Somehwere, somehow, that transition has happened. But I would be lying if I said I felt like a full on adult. It’s very strange feeling, but that’s the reality of life. I’m sort of suspended in this never-ending state of limbo.

I’ve very much enjoyed my time so far on this planet, some times I think maybe too much. But I still feel there is much more to come. I’ve grown so much as a person in the last 10 years. The things I’ve experienced have made me a better, stronger person. Maybe this trip is the start of something new, maybe I’m trying to relive moments of the past, maybe it’s my return of Saturn, or maybe I’m just itching for a road trip. Either way, I’m looking forward to hitting the road once again. There’s nothing quite like traveling, exploring, and meeting new people. I’ll try to update this as much as I can. Follow along and if for some reason we cross paths, say hello.