A Rainy Morning In Early 2016

It’s a rainy morning in Los Angeles. These types of mornings are rare it seems, but El Nino has finally reared its head and brought us some much needed rain. Lying in bed, I hear the sound of rain coming down in the alley behind my room; acting as my soundtrack this morning. It’s a comforting feeling; one that I haven’t felt in quite some time here, but also one that perfectly sets the tone for a morning of reflection. I open up my computer to get my thoughts out, and realize that I haven’t made a bog post in almost 2 months. Time flies as they say. So with that, I’m going to take this time to reflect on the past year and the year that lies ahead.

People love to take the New Year as a chance to reset the clock. To start over. To get it right. To try something new. But in reality, it’s just another day. The clock continues to tick forward weather we want it to or not. But for arguments sake, 2015 as a whole turned out to be a very self-exploratory year for myself. I didn’t plan on it happening that way.  My career didn’t quite develop the way I wanted it to this past year, but sometimes you have to take a step back and re-evaluate. I’m almost 30 years old and like to think that I’ve got it all figured out. I’ve got it all together. Not even close. I continue to evolve as a person and in the past year I grew and learned so much more than I thought was possible. I discovered things in myself; I awoke new feelings and emotions, and realized that only I can hold myself back from achieving the things that I want to achieve. I traveled a lot in 2015. I went on a much needed road trip. I met people who deeply impacted my life. I reconnected with old friends. I made new experiences and memories that will stick with me forever. That’s what I’m taking away from 2015.

And that leads me to 2016. A year in which I turn the calendar on another decade of my life. In just under a month I will turn 30. I think about it because it is a big moment in my life, but I’m not really nervous about it. Time only goes in one direction and there’s no sense worrying about things you can’t control. Society likes to tell us and dictate that we should accomplish certain things by a certain age. It’s something I certainly thought of when I was younger. If you were to ask me 10 years ago where I’d be at 30, I would have told you that I’d be married and kicking ass in my career. That’s what I thought I should do because that’s what everyone tells you to do. Fuck that. If I stand for one thing, it’s that you should live the life you want to live. We all get such a brief amount of time on this planet, so lets enjoy it. I feel like I’ve lived multiple lifetimes in the past 10 years, and I wouldn’t change anything. Stick to your guns. Trust your heart. Know who you are and just own it.

I’ve decided that I’m dedicating 2016 to working my ass off. Working to become a better person. Working to build a career. Working to get into the best shape possible. Working to grow my relationships with people. That’s what I’m about this year. More traveling lies ahead, hopefully more than ever. And I promise to update this blog as much as possible. Like I said when I launched it, I will keep this as open and honest as possible. If you guys would like to see anything here or have any suggestions let me know. Lets take this fun journey together.